So I've been feeling much more interested in commemorating the New Year than I usually am any other year. Maybe it's because I'm trying to extend the holidays as much as possible due to having to work through them. Or maybe it's because I really feel like I have a lot of resolutions and personal goals and changes to focus on right now.
Either way, I came across this quote as I was brosing Instagram -something I have been doing quite often. Lusting after the lives of those who just seem to be able to frolick in the woods and take photos all day. It starts to take its toll. But anyways, I came across this quote.
"In 2014, I hope you feel adored...if even for a moment. I hope you feel strong and empowered and invincible from something you do. I hope you get at least one hug that makes you feel perfectly whole, and maybe one kiss tha makes you float. Work hard and dream harder and eat your veggies. Count your sunsets...and your sunrises. And love your dogs. Believe in something, you little peach. And dont' forget the occasional whiskey."
It could have easily been written for a friend, but I imagine that the author wrote it for herself. I thought it was so charming that it inspired me to write one of my own. One of my resolutions is to be more open and not afraid. Not just on the internet. Because anyone can write down words and hide their face and emotions behind the computer screen. But I do fee like it's a good start. I am sharing this on facebook, so you know, anyone can read it ;)
But here is the letter to myself and a random collection of photos I've taken this year. Some belong to a larger series or perhaps they're just random b-sides. Anyways, enjoy! And Happy New Year, friends!
In 2014, I hope you can forgive.
I hope you can let go of those feelings that you think someone might owe you something because they hurt you in the past. I hope you realize that it is so much easier to accept love from others when you've forgiven and just let go.
I hope you see sights that make you sigh deeply and give you excitement and butterflies because they're just so so beautiful. I hope you can feel that passion that makes you want to squeal or dance a little or bang your hands on the steering wheel because you've just got to let some of it out. I hope you hear the train whistle out your window.
I hope you can forgive yourself and realize you are not who they used to make you feel you were. I hope you always allow your best to show. I hope you know you are talented and lovely and warm but sometimes you could be less cold.
I hope you realize that God is still creating you. I hope you can forgive yourself. I know I already said that but it deserves to be said again. I hope you realize that you deserve to be treated well and pursued, damnit. I hope you forgive those that didn't.
I hope you always let others know how much they're worth. I hope you follow your gut more. Believe in what God says to you and for you. I hope you know that having hope, faith or loving is never a waste.
I hope you stop and give notice to that which is beautiful. I hope you run again and have that emotional experience of realizing your body is capable of so much more than you think. I hope you share yourself and your heart with someone. I hope you're never afraid of being vulnerable. Keep remembering that the more you are yourself, fully, the more you allow others to be themselves as well.
I hope someone buys you dinner and flowers and lets you ride in the passenger seat with your legs curled up. Buy someone dinner. Drink whiskey and sangria. Maybe not together. Eat more salads. Try to learn to cook more. Shoot more film.
Work on those languages. You want to become trilingual one day, right!
I hope you can accept the good things others say about you. Accept and think about the constructive criticism too. Pray with someone. Or more than one someone. It could be a stranger.
Drive to Sierra Vista again. Take yourself on a vacation. Go to the mountains and hug a redwood. Try something you've been wanting to try but never thought you'd be any good at. Like Zumba. Or yoga. Mostly yoga.
Dance a lot. It makes you feel alive. I hope you become less and less afraid until you no longer feel like you don't deserve what you really want. I hope you doubt yourself less and give yourself, and others, the benefit of the doubt.
Stop the car and take those pictures you want to take. You'll only regret not doing it.
Most of all, let go and follow the Lord. He created you and has a plan.